While running this morning I had another heart to heart with myself: These conversations usually start out pretty harsh and resolve with varying degrees of peace.
It took me 46 years to have this one.
I had a similar chat with myself 5 years ago....But that was before 5 of the absolutely most difficult years of my life.
I am a different woman since then...
I still believe everything thing I said in that This is Who I Am post.
But there is more...
Beyond the hats I wear, the roles I play and the things I do there is a soul.
A spirit that may be constantly changing, but remains, at the core who I am.
It's Tina.
Not Tina Conrad, not Tina Shinn, not mom, honey, friend or dog food pourer.
Just Tina.
The woman who has been knocked down by many but, refuses to call it defeat.
The woman who hears the chaos of the world, but listens to God's gentle whispers.
The woman who is ashamed of all she has not done, but ought to be proud of what she has.
The woman whose life may be 2/3 over, but whose story will be never-ending.
If I stop for a moment & quietly regard Tina, I will find that there is much about her that is worthy. She was marvously purposely created by a God who loves her and smiles when He peers into her inmost soul.
When was the last time you sat along the side of the road of your life & genuinely peeked into you?
You will find a soul created with intense perfection for the life He leads you to...You need only stop long enough to find her perfect beauty & strength.
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